The Guilt

Agghh - what happened?? It's July...
Oh the guilt I feel - bad bad bad blogger - just when I get the groove of this going I end up disappearing for what..almost 3 months..Bad bad bad blogger...

Well shall we recap the exciting happenings of my absence??
Okay here goes.... well...umm..aaah...(crickets chirping)..unfortunately nothing of interest to report - no, I did not commit any heinous crimes, no jail time, no exotic vacations, no partying, nope nothing - just boring old day in and day out crap

The husband has been away more than here though thanks to his self declared importance for the company he works for - has been travelling every couple weeks to a different province and staying for a couple of weeks at a time - woo hoo - that has been very refreshing - he actually left again tonight for two weeks - now if we can only figure out a way for him to stay there......

I suppose the biggest happening here has been the boy's birthday last week - little bugger is now 7 years old - can't believe how fast it is all going by - I tried to convince him to let me pretend that it was only his 4 birthday - even bribed him with extra birthday presents, but he wouldn't go for it (I still pretend though when I go to that happy place in my head)

Work has been busier than a bitch, who knew the heat effects moods - ha

That's pretty much it - gonna try real hard now not to let this slide again

Perhaps a photo will help....

Sometimes......

Sometimes things just are meant to be.....
The husband will not be taking the job in Michigan (boo hoo) but will be going for a few weeks (maybe more) to Vancouver to work - must. contain. excitement. woo hoo!!

Sometimes bad things do really happen to good people....
My best friend husband has been secretly screwing a stripper and plans on leaving her in debt up to her eyeballs with two small kids to parent on her own

Sometimes the grass is greener on the other side...
My neighbour invited us (me and the boy) over for a swimming party on Saturday in their INDOOR heated huge honkin' pool

Sometimes things you think are big deals really are patheticially trivial...
I thought I was going to lose my mind because I couldn't fit into last year's capri pants and then a client's 12 year old daughter was diagnosed with cancer on Tuesday and likely will not see Christmas

Sometimes you should have faith in yourself....
Okay so I "aced" my last french test last night and my oral presentation actually seemed to go okay - no one booed or threw tomatoes - a good sign I think - oui oui

Sometimes you are just so full of shit and pathos that you should just go to bed...
Nighty nite kids

Favours and Flavours....

To the handful of readers of this blog can I ask a favour of ya??
You see, the husband may have a job opportunity that is 3 hours away from this place
It would do us all some good to have him the hell away from here...
Seriously, I would appreciate some positive thoughts, prayers, sacrifices, chanting, whatever it is you do to make things happen cause if he is gone...do I dare dream... life will be complete....
Ya, I know selfish, selfish me but man, he MUST go...

Now on to something totally unrelated...
Ketchup - yes I've never really thought about it... but I love the stuff...
Discuss....

Joyeuses Paques....

Yep, there I said it - en francis no less...
The bunny came - left a bizillion eggs outside and a kick ass basket full of overly priced toys for the boy - yep it's easter... yipee...
Enough said about that - now lets move on...

Actually, spending the day livin "the day of the bunny" made me remember a bunny I once had that was quite dear to my heart....

Back in the good old days of the mid 80's I was deeply in love, er, infatuated with a much older guy "Tim". One day when we were out in the canoe (no really we did go canoeing - I lived on the river then) I found a stuffed bunny floating in the nasty assed water of the river - well needless to say I had to rescue this bacteria infested stuffed animal and take it home - I bleached the snot out of it in the bathroom for hours and then decided that it was okay and treasured it like nobody's business... aww Tim and the bunny.... good times

God I remember that day now and I'm feeling all squishy inside - man I miss the simplicity of that love and the huge impact some stupid thing had on your happiness...

(And as a sidenote to "Tim" if you ever read this...(giggle) you really weren't my "first"...but I like to think you were... Phew, finally got that off my chest...)

Now hand me a water soaked, germ infested, bacteria filled stuffed animal today and you'd be wearing the damn thing...

Anybody remember that song by The Waterboys - The Whole of The Moon - or something like that????

Still laughing...

A friend of mine sent me this email and I'm still giggling my ass off about it
Apologies if you have already seen this....

This year's 10 winners of the Bulwer-Lytton contest, aka "Dark and Stormy Contest" (run by the English Dept. of San Jose State University),

This year's 10 winners of the Bulwer-Lytton contest, aka "Dark and Stormy
Night Contest" (run by the English Dept. of San Jose State University),
wherein one writes only the first line of a bad novel:

10) "As a scientist, Throckmorton knew that if he were ever to break wind
in the echo chamber, he would never hear the end of it."

9) "Just beyond the Narrows, the river widens."

8) "With a curvaceous figure that Venus would have envied, a tanned,
unblemished oval face framed with lustrous thick brown hair, deep
azure-blue eyes fringed with long black lashes, perfect teeth that vied
for competition, and a small straight nose, Marilee had a beauty that
defied description."

7) "Andre, a simple peasant, had only one thing on his mind as he crept
along the East wall: 'Andre creep... Andre creep... Andre creep.' "

6) "Stanislaus Smedley, a man always on the cutting edge of narcissism,
was about to give his body and soul to a back alley sex-change surgeon to
become the woman he loved."

5) "Although Sarah had an abnormal fear of mice, it did not keep her from
eeking out a living at a local pet store."

4) "Stanley looked quite bored and somewhat detached, but then penguins
often do."

3) "Like an over-ripe beefsteak tomato rimmed with cottage cheese, the
corpulent remains of Santa Claus lay dead on the hotel floor."

2) "Mike Hardware was the kind of private eye who didn't know the meaning of the word 'fear'; a man who could laugh in the face of danger and spit in the eye of death -- in short, a moron with suicidal tendencies."

AND THE WINNER IS...

1) The sun oozed over the horizon, shoved aside darkness, crept along the
greensward, and, with sickly fingers, pushed through the castle window,
revealing the pillaged princess, hand at throat, crown asunder, gaping in
frenzied horror at the sated, sodden amphibian lying beside her,
disbelieving the magnitude of the frog's deception, screaming madly, 'You
lied!"

Spring has sprung

Yes I think it really may be happening kids...
Let us keep our fingers crossed that the evil snow is now behind us
Beautiful sunny days lately - high in the upper teens (that's Celsius)
The flowers are beginning to sprout up
The birds are back and singing their chirpy little tunes
The trees are looking like they are ready to burst with buds
Yep it seems that it's all happening....

Now most would see all the abovementioned signs and agree that spring is here BUT
you wanna know how I know that spring is here....

All my clients go off their meds...

Now you would think that the promise of a season of renewal and new beginnings would bring most to a sense a of peace and positive outlooks
Yep, to most that is how it is played out - but not with my "friends" at the crisis centre

Now before you start poo pooing me about my unprofessionalism in this post realize that after 2 weeks of working over overtime, being cursed at, cried on, being told that I personally have the power to make or break someone's existence, and then lastly on Monday being asked to be the guardian of a client's children should they "disappear" has made this girl just need some space to let it all go...

Yep it's spring at the crisis centre, come on down....

God I love the spring..... and yeh, I love my job too....

It's Sunday again.......

Hey it's Sunday night and I have survived it without any bloodshed or tears.....

Went with my friend to the local market and walked around downtown - it was great!
I really miss downtown, the shops, the people, the whole vibe - reminds me of when I lived there back in college and how everything was so much more alive, vibrant, and exciting... I really want to visit that time again..
I think going downtown and hangin' will now need to be added to the objectives list for the 4 year plan... (yah remember the plan girl)

I have been going to the gym as painful as it is sometimes...
Got myself a personal trainer who I've met with a few times now - but will not be meeting again with her for a LONG while
Now the next bit of rambling here is not meant to offend, disrespect, or upset the personal trainers of the world but.....WHAT THE HELL - you suck...
I have never felt sooooo stupid and pathetic in all of my life (and trust me there have been plenty of times)

She seriously hates me - no seriously I think deep down inside she will not be satisfied until she has killed me - I believe she is hunting me for sport...
Is it really necessary to YELL at me and LAUGH at me and PUSH me?? - me thinks not...
I literally told her I had to stop because I was going to puke and she every so graciously told me that I COULD NOT stop, brought me a garbage pail to vomit in and began to tell me that if I threw up it was just because all of the blood was rushing to my legs and the other systems of my body were starting to shut down - now did you know that the digestive system is the first system to "shut down" therefore needing to "expel" the stomach contents?? - apparently, according to little miss Lucifer, this is a good thing...

You see I have a HUGE problem with people telling me what to do - especially when it involves pain and humiliation...
Now I will still go to the gym and kick my own ass - thank you very much....

And a little note to self and anyone else reading this - one thing that I did learn from this one on one go around with little miss thing is - NEVER, NEVER, NEVER, EVER call your personal trainer a skinny bitch because she will make you pay, pay, and pay......

So far so shitty....

Well it's Thursday and all so far I haven't lost my mind completely...yet
It has been a busy week so far and fairly shitty but let's focus once again,
kids,on the positive...
- didn't flunk my french test, got a surprisely 77%
- had a great time volunteering at the boy's school on Tuesday
- the weather has been awesome
- umm....my back isn't sore this week
- oh yeah, made plans to go to lunch and a movie with a friend this Sunday
- um..the sun was shining today - oh sorry, already mentioned weather
- The Office wasn't a rerun tonight
- ugh.. I'm really starting to struggle now...
- so far my clients at work this week haven't had any major psychiatric issues
- ahhh... all the appliances are in working order at home
- okay I'm done...

NOW FOR THE SHITTY...no really I should just stop here... I'm afraid that if I start a list now it will never end and I'm tired and need to go to bed....
I do have to say that I did get my first speeding ticket - first ever in 20 years of driving and let me tell you I sure did do it up properly - $145.00 - I don't do things half assed when I screw up...
You know I really gotta get focused and get on the plan, man

Okay - apology for the bland and drool inducing post today - I'll try harder next time

I hate Sundays...

Yes, I know, I am in the minority - people who hate Sundays..
I have many reasons as to why this particular day annoys me
The main reason is that the husband is around all. freakin. day.
I do not like to be in his company most days and the sunday is the worst of them all
At least through the week we have the buffer of work, busy schedules and activities
On sundays nothing is going on around here but housework and video games... and this is when it all comes to a head -
I hear tale that people enjoy their Sundays with movies, reading, walks in the park, dinners out, family activities, taking naps...
My Sunday involves a bizillion loads of laundry and housecleaning
Sure he may go grocery shopping sometimes but then becomes resentful of the fact that he has done this and pisses the rest of the day away being an ass

Today I thought I would mix it up a bit and go to the gym... that was good BUT then I came home to the ass who basically yelled at me for inquiring as to where he and the boy were going - like I should just assume he was going grocery shopping...

I really hate Sundays
Maybe one day I will have the ability to love them again...

P.S. Telling me to be thankful that at least he went grocery shopping WILL NOT BE HELPUL NOR APPRECIATED....

The big girl goes to the gym...

So I joined a new gym and had my initial fitness test and program set up thingy
Well let me just say it - I. hate. to. exercise.
Yep that blond hottie had his job cut out for him today with this big girl
Here's pretty much the way it went down with mr. exercise extraordinator
"You want me to what??" "I should what??" "You're jokin right??"
So I can't even get my fat ass up on that torture chamber machine and then you expect me to move a body part??? Ha I say Ha Ha
Yep the machines are a total bust - but one must keep trying right?
So we go to the boxing area where there are all the big long black bags you hit, and that bag thingy that you are suppose to hit really fast, and those dumbass boxing gloves that you have to wear
This is how that whole fiasco played out..
"Seriously I can't skip rope, no really this girl don't bounce, no I won't bounce man, back away from me with that rope before I strangle you with it dumbass..."
"Hit that bag.. hmmm... these gloves really stink, like really stink man, ewwwww they really stink when I hit that thing, man I'm gonna get some ebola virus from this stench.."
In all honesty though the boxing stuff was kinda fun and they weren't shittin when they said it was a good cardio workout - I literally had to say I had to pee so I could go to the bathroom and dry heave for about 2 minutes.....
Now on to our one to one program evaluation and set up exercise program:
Fitness level - poor
Cardio level - poor
and some other area that I was poor in - no actually my resting heart rate apparently is good at 62 - go figure an area I'm good in - resting - HA
So I did agree to come back on Tuesday for more fun and giggles - Lord help me...

Open Letter To The Husband...

Okay so I'm thinking that you may find this blog and...well... sorry if you do.....
If you should stumble upon this - firstly - RELAX
I know how upset you were when YOU READ THAT EMAIL TO "L" that included a passage about kicking you to the curb... so I can only imagine how big that vein in your temple is bulging now as you read this
Seriously though, I haven't really written anything too terrible about you here (yet)
I am trying to keep our anonimity here so I'm sure no one really knows us (god I hope so)
You really should not be pissed man... apparently you are not happy with me discussing our pathetic life together with my best friend, you will not discuss our pathetic life together with a therapist, nor will you take the time to talk to me about our pathetic life together...so....
You can just go on without dealing with anything but I can't...
I need to talk things out, I need to be heard, I need to get out the crap in my brain before it explodes...
If my rambling here to some cyberstrangers, or to no one at all, gives me a little piece of mind then so be it - trust me it's better I get it out here than all over you...
And you know what... this thing here really isn't about you - it's about me
Now if you have something to contribute there is this letter button thingy that says comments - push it and let me have it or don't push it and let it go....

One hundred things about me....

Can I really pull this off??
1. I love my boy more than life itself
2. I generally feel indifferent to the man I'm married to, well, on a good day - sometimes I just want to bash his head in with a weedwacker
3. My parents divorced when I was 6 years old
4. My father had custody of me and my sister growing up
5. I hate feet - think they are gross
6. I had a dog named Ritalin
7. We have a dog now named Barkley
8. I love greek food
9. I used to smoke cigarettes - for about 13 years
10. I am very interested in Buddhism
11. Crickets scare the hell out of me
12. This is the fattest I've ever been in my life
13. The smell of Clinque's "Happy" perfume makes me sick
14. I love my job usually
15. I secretly love Buffy the Vampire Slayer
16. I pretty much lost the year of 1988 due to excessive "partying"
17. I am taking a French course currently
18. One day I will own a Canon Rebel or maybe a Nikon D70
19. I wish I could play the cello
20. I can tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue but have not done this since
the early 90's
21. The elderly intrigue me
22. I do not follow politics
23. I hope to go to India for my 40th or 50th birthday
24. I need glasses
25. Can not live without music
26. Hate lobster and most seafood
27. Doing this makes me think I'm being somewhat narcissistic
28. I watched my mother die
29. I suffer from Vertigo - ya it sucks
30. The best year of my life was 1987
31. I love the work of Edward Gorey and Tim Burton
32. I really did think my wedding was the best evah!
33. I am scared to death of open water
34. I'm really thirsty right now
35. Ahh - I am now drinking a diet coke
36. My baby sister (she's 32) is awesome
37. I really didn't lose my virginity with "T"
38. I'm losing interest in doing this now
39. I feel like I'm doing that Van Halen video - you know the "right now" one..
40. Ugh...nevermind.....I'm done...

La La La La...

Okay yesterday sucked - ya sucked real hard but today was a new day and with
a new day came a new chance to make it a good one...
God that was really cheesy...
Lets look at the good - things that made me happy today...
(hums that song from the sound of music... rainbows and something about kittens..)
- my boy, actually nothing comes close to the happiness that kid brings me
- having a kick ass good hair day
- finding $15.00 in the washing machine (don't tell the dumbass)
- hearing the birds sing this morning for the first time since this god forsaken winter has been going on
- finally getting that pain in the ass Assessment report done at work today
- having the kitchen sparklin clean
- finding this freakin hilarious blog http://paulstoecklein.blogs.com/
- not stuffin my face with chips tonight
And now I'm going to have the world's longest shower and then hop into bed and start reading a really good book
See it's not all bad.............

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well isn't that great.... oh my god i'm sooooooooooooooo upset
God I hate hate hate hate him
I just can't win
FUCK
I'm so screwed
I've been really trying to keep it together - really trying - really trying
but I just can't today, not today, not today

She rambles about nothin now

Honestly I really have nothing significant to say - just feel the need to update this blog with something..

Well, I'm watching the oscars right now and haven't seen any of these movies, feeling a bit disappointed with Jon tonight - I really love him and all but, not as great as I thought he'd be...

Was going through the random blogs on here and really.. most are not in english, lots babble on about christian yada yada yada, lots about politics(like I care), and honestly haven't found one tonight that caught my eye enough to actually read through...

Soulmates...soulmates...soulmates... what the hell does that really mean... do you have a soulmate... I have yet to meet mine...discuss

Have my first french test on Wednesday - ha what a joke... what was I thinking when I signed up for French classes - I haven't been in school since 1990 - ahahaha(that's French for ha)

I love the word pedals..say it with me..Pedals, P..ed..als.. isn't that the coolest word - scuba is a good one too..

I think I want to have an affair

Half Naked Thursday

So being fairly new to this new bloggin thing I have noticed people posting pictures for half naked Thursday - HNT -
So I thought I would contribute to this "tradition" with my contribution
Here it is...

Yes it is my left hand - naked? you ask - Yes, on the ring finger you will notice the absence of the wedding bands and engagement ring I normally wear
If you look closely you will see the seemingly permanent indentations of the rings - 3 reddened band areas on my finger
Lately I have been taken to not wearing the bling - I do miss the rings - especially the sparkle of the diamond, but alas one more area of my life that I must overcome..

A woman at work today came to show us all the new engagement ring she received
Man, the diamond was so big that it really looked fake - I'm sure it wasn't but damn it was large - jealous? maybe

What does one do with the rings once it is no longer appropriate to wear?
Wear on the right hand, make into some new piece of jewellery, sell it, or put in the jewellery box and forget about it???

Agghh.. maybe I will still wear it all - it's not like I've signed any papers yet and god knows he won't notice if I have it on or not....

Here we go again...

Okay... so I really must be honest here and say that the results from that personality test I took the other day has been really bugging me..

Like seriously, am I really like that?? - depressed, introverted, insecure, does not make friends easily, irritable, fragile and submissive - WTF - seriously..

I really don't see myself like that - maybe I'm just fooling myself though

Am I really like this?? - Maybe I have changed from the outgoing, silly, funny person I thought I was - I know I was like that once - maybe before the deaths, the marriage, the kid...

Man now I am depressed - so... I decide to take the test again - maybe I was too hasty in my answers before, maybe if I take more time in reading and answering the questions I will see the results that make more sense to who I think I am...

So here I go again..

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||||||| 40% Stability |||||||||||| 43% Orderliness |||||||||||||||| 70% Accommodation |||||||||||||||||| 76% Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56% Intellectual |||||||||| 36% Mystical |||||||||||||||| 70% Artistic |||||||||||| 43% Religious |||||||||||| 50% Hedonism |||||| 23% Materialism |||||||||||||| 56% Narcissism |||||||||||| 43% Adventurousness |||||||||| 36% Work ethic |||||||||||||| 56% Self absorbed |||||| 30% Conflict seeking |||||||||||| 43% Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56% Romantic |||||||||||||| 56% Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 63% Anti-authority |||||||||| 36% Wealth |||||||||||| 43% Dependency |||||| 30% Change averse |||||||||||||||| 70% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Individuality |||||||||||| 43% Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 70% Peter pan complex |||||| 30% Physical security |||||||||||||||| 70% Physical Fitness |||||||||||| 44% Histrionic |||||| 30% Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 70% Vanity |||||||||||| 43% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76% Female cliche |||||||||||||| 56%

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Stability results were moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.


trait snapshot:

neat freak, organized, worrying, phobic, fears the unknown, irritable, pessimistic, emotionally sensitive, fears chaos, risk averse, fragile, unadventurous, depressed, frequently second guesses self, likes to fit in, does not like to stand out, perfectionist, hard working, does not like to be alone, clingy, dependent, practical, ordinary, cautious, takes precautions, good at saving money, suspicious, heart over mind, busy, altruistic


Oh for god's sake - not much better - I give up - going to bed now

Goodnight from one irritable depressed somebody

Things that I learnt today...

- plugging in the toaster this morning does not cook the chicken in the crockpot

- my boy thinks that "a.s.s." spells a bad word - and this bad "a" word is acid (he also thinks that the "s" swear word is stupid and the "f" swear word is fat and a woman's breast is called an upper private) God I love this kid!!!

- my sister adopted a half blind dog named Chester

- I have a very low tolerance today for certain people's need to be helped - as a matter of fact if this said individual cannot get their shit together without my apparently much need assistance I may just have to elbow them in the throat and then twist their frickin lips off

- an extra large double double and a large coffee with milk and sweetener is exactly $3.00 at Timmy's now

And now for the photo of the day....


Hope you learnt a thing or two today...

Seriously - is this me??

What about you?

Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||||| 26% Stability |||||| 26% Orderliness |||||||||||||||||| 73% Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Interdependence |||||||||||| 43% Intellectual |||||| 30% Mystical |||||||||||||||| 70% Artistic |||||||||||||||| 70% Religious |||||||||| 36% Hedonism |||||| 30% Materialism |||||||||||| 50% Narcissism |||||||||||| 50% Adventurousness |||||||||| 36% Work ethic |||||||||||| 50% Self absorbed |||||| 23% Conflict seeking |||||||||||||| 56% Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50% Romantic |||||||||||||| 56% Avoidant |||||||||| 36% Anti-authority |||||| 30% Wealth |||||||||| 36% Dependency |||||| 23% Change averse |||||||||||||||| 63% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Individuality |||||| 30% Sexuality |||||||||||||| 56% Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50% Physical security |||||||||||||| 56% Physical Fitness || 10% Histrionic |||||||||||||| 56% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Vanity |||||| 30% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Female cliche |||||||||||| 50%

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Stability results were low which suggests you are very worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious.

Orderliness results were high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.

Extraversion results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:

depressed, introverted, neat, needs things to be extremely clean, observer, perfectionist, not self revealing, does not make friends easily, suspicious, irritable, hates large parties, follows the rules, worrying, does not like to stand out, fragile, phobic, submissive, dislikes leadership, cautious, takes precautions, focuses on hidden motives, good at saving money, solitary, familiar with the dark side of life, hard working, emotionally sensitive, prudent, altruistic, heart over mind, unadventurous

Boy don't I sound like a barrel of laughs eh?

There are others

I just found a blog that is very comforting in knowing that not everyone is all loving and adoring towards the spouse
I'd add the link but don't know how - i'll work on this though
Had this survey on to take so here it is
Let me know your survey results
Ciao for now

Name:	Lisa
Birthdate:	Oct 31
Birthplace:	Ontario Canada
Current Location:	Canada
Eye Color:	Blue/Grey
Hair Color:	Right now it's skany blonde
Height:	5 something
Weight:	Ha - never will reveal at this point
Piercings:	Two
Tatoos:	Nope
Boyfriend/Girlfriend:	Once I dump the husband then maybe one of each
Overused Phraze:	Dumbass
FAVORITES
Food:	Greek
Candy:	Sour or chocolate
Number:	3
Color:	Green
Animal:	dog
Drink:	Diet coke
Alcohol Drink:	Shiraz or vodka with ginger ale
Bagel:	toasted with cream cheese
Letter:	S
Body Part on Opposite sex:	the forearm and/or hands
This or That
Pepsi or Coke:	Coke
McDonalds or BurgerKing:	McDonalds
Strawberry or Watermelon:	Watermelon
Hot tea or Ice tea:	Yuck to both
Chocolate or Vanilla	Chocolate
Hot Chocolate or Coffee:	Coffee
Kiss or Hug:	Hug
Dog or Cat:	Dog
Rap or Punk:	Punk
Summer or Winter:	Summer - but I hate the heat
Scary Movies or Funny Movies:	Funny
Love or Money:	At this point it'd be money all the way
YOUR...
Bedtime:	midnight
Most Missed Memory:	Grandma
Best phyiscal feature:	Eyes probably
First Thought Waking Up:	Oh for gods sakes
Goal for this year:	Lose weight
Best Friends:	Vic, Lauren and Lynne
Weakness:	People pleasing and worrying
Fears:	Death
Heritage:	English and German
Longest relationship:	12 years
HAVE YOU...
Ever Drank:	Yep
Ever Smoked:	Yep
Pot:	Yep
Ever been Drunk:	Yep
Ever been beaten up:	Nope
Ever beaten someone up:	Nope
Ever Shoplifted:	Yep
Ever Skinny Dipped:	Yep
Ever Kissed Opposite sex:	Yep
Been Dumped Lately:	Nope
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color:	Blue
Favorite Hair Color:	Dark
Short or Long:	Short
Height:	Tall over 6 feet
Style:	Business casual
Looks or Personality:	Personality
Hot or Cute	Both preferably - but I'll go with cute
Drugs and Alcohol:	Social alcohol - no drugs please
Muscular or Really Skinny:	Muscular
RANDOMS
Number of Regrets in the Past:	A bizillion
What country do you want to Visit:	India
How do you want to Die:	NO thanks
Been to the Mall Lately:	on the weekend
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yep
Get along with your Parents:	Most times
Health Freak:	Nope but need to be
Do you think your Attractive:	When skinny
Believe in Yourself:	Most times
Want to go to College:	Been there thanks
Do you Smoke:	Not anymore
Do you Drink:	Sometimes
Shower Daily:	Yep
Been in Love:	I think so.....long ago
Do you Sing:	Just to myself and boy
Want to get Married:	Nope
Do you want Children:	Got one - would like another though
Have your future kids names planned out:	Grace or Stella
Age you wanna lose your Virginity:	Done that long long ago...
Hate anyone:	Yep
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