Well it's Thursday and all so far I haven't lost my mind completely...yet
It has been a busy week so far and fairly shitty but let's focus once again,
kids,on the positive...
- didn't flunk my french test, got a surprisely 77%
- had a great time volunteering at the boy's school on Tuesday
- the weather has been awesome
- umm....my back isn't sore this week
- oh yeah, made plans to go to lunch and a movie with a friend this Sunday
- um..the sun was shining today - oh sorry, already mentioned weather
- The Office wasn't a rerun tonight
- ugh.. I'm really starting to struggle now...
- so far my clients at work this week haven't had any major psychiatric issues
- ahhh... all the appliances are in working order at home
- okay I'm done...
NOW FOR THE SHITTY...no really I should just stop here... I'm afraid that if I start a list now it will never end and I'm tired and need to go to bed....
I do have to say that I did get my first speeding ticket - first ever in 20 years of driving and let me tell you I sure did do it up properly - $145.00 - I don't do things half assed when I screw up...
You know I really gotta get focused and get on the plan, man
Okay - apology for the bland and drool inducing post today - I'll try harder next time
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Sunday, March 26, 2006
I hate Sundays...
Yes, I know, I am in the minority - people who hate Sundays..
I have many reasons as to why this particular day annoys me
The main reason is that the husband is around all. freakin. day.
I do not like to be in his company most days and the sunday is the worst of them all
At least through the week we have the buffer of work, busy schedules and activities
On sundays nothing is going on around here but housework and video games... and this is when it all comes to a head -
I hear tale that people enjoy their Sundays with movies, reading, walks in the park, dinners out, family activities, taking naps...
My Sunday involves a bizillion loads of laundry and housecleaning
Sure he may go grocery shopping sometimes but then becomes resentful of the fact that he has done this and pisses the rest of the day away being an ass
Today I thought I would mix it up a bit and go to the gym... that was good BUT then I came home to the ass who basically yelled at me for inquiring as to where he and the boy were going - like I should just assume he was going grocery shopping...
I really hate Sundays
Maybe one day I will have the ability to love them again...
P.S. Telling me to be thankful that at least he went grocery shopping WILL NOT BE HELPUL NOR APPRECIATED....
Sunday, March 19, 2006
The big girl goes to the gym...
So I joined a new gym and had my initial fitness test and program set up thingy
Well let me just say it - I. hate. to. exercise.
Yep that blond hottie had his job cut out for him today with this big girl
Here's pretty much the way it went down with mr. exercise extraordinator
"You want me to what??" "I should what??" "You're jokin right??"
So I can't even get my fat ass up on that torture chamber machine and then you expect me to move a body part??? Ha I say Ha Ha
Yep the machines are a total bust - but one must keep trying right?
So we go to the boxing area where there are all the big long black bags you hit, and that bag thingy that you are suppose to hit really fast, and those dumbass boxing gloves that you have to wear
This is how that whole fiasco played out..
"Seriously I can't skip rope, no really this girl don't bounce, no I won't bounce man, back away from me with that rope before I strangle you with it dumbass..."
"Hit that bag.. hmmm... these gloves really stink, like really stink man, ewwwww they really stink when I hit that thing, man I'm gonna get some ebola virus from this stench.."
In all honesty though the boxing stuff was kinda fun and they weren't shittin when they said it was a good cardio workout - I literally had to say I had to pee so I could go to the bathroom and dry heave for about 2 minutes.....
Now on to our one to one program evaluation and set up exercise program:
Fitness level - poor
Cardio level - poor
and some other area that I was poor in - no actually my resting heart rate apparently is good at 62 - go figure an area I'm good in - resting - HA
So I did agree to come back on Tuesday for more fun and giggles - Lord help me...
Well let me just say it - I. hate. to. exercise.
Yep that blond hottie had his job cut out for him today with this big girl
Here's pretty much the way it went down with mr. exercise extraordinator
"You want me to what??" "I should what??" "You're jokin right??"
So I can't even get my fat ass up on that torture chamber machine and then you expect me to move a body part??? Ha I say Ha Ha
Yep the machines are a total bust - but one must keep trying right?
So we go to the boxing area where there are all the big long black bags you hit, and that bag thingy that you are suppose to hit really fast, and those dumbass boxing gloves that you have to wear
This is how that whole fiasco played out..
"Seriously I can't skip rope, no really this girl don't bounce, no I won't bounce man, back away from me with that rope before I strangle you with it dumbass..."
"Hit that bag.. hmmm... these gloves really stink, like really stink man, ewwwww they really stink when I hit that thing, man I'm gonna get some ebola virus from this stench.."
In all honesty though the boxing stuff was kinda fun and they weren't shittin when they said it was a good cardio workout - I literally had to say I had to pee so I could go to the bathroom and dry heave for about 2 minutes.....
Now on to our one to one program evaluation and set up exercise program:
Fitness level - poor
Cardio level - poor
and some other area that I was poor in - no actually my resting heart rate apparently is good at 62 - go figure an area I'm good in - resting - HA
So I did agree to come back on Tuesday for more fun and giggles - Lord help me...
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Open Letter To The Husband...
Okay so I'm thinking that you may find this blog and...well... sorry if you do.....
If you should stumble upon this - firstly - RELAX
I know how upset you were when YOU READ THAT EMAIL TO "L" that included a passage about kicking you to the curb... so I can only imagine how big that vein in your temple is bulging now as you read this
Seriously though, I haven't really written anything too terrible about you here (yet)
I am trying to keep our anonimity here so I'm sure no one really knows us (god I hope so)
You really should not be pissed man... apparently you are not happy with me discussing our pathetic life together with my best friend, you will not discuss our pathetic life together with a therapist, nor will you take the time to talk to me about our pathetic life together...so....
You can just go on without dealing with anything but I can't...
I need to talk things out, I need to be heard, I need to get out the crap in my brain before it explodes...
If my rambling here to some cyberstrangers, or to no one at all, gives me a little piece of mind then so be it - trust me it's better I get it out here than all over you...
And you know what... this thing here really isn't about you - it's about me
Now if you have something to contribute there is this letter button thingy that says comments - push it and let me have it or don't push it and let it go....
If you should stumble upon this - firstly - RELAX
I know how upset you were when YOU READ THAT EMAIL TO "L" that included a passage about kicking you to the curb... so I can only imagine how big that vein in your temple is bulging now as you read this
Seriously though, I haven't really written anything too terrible about you here (yet)
I am trying to keep our anonimity here so I'm sure no one really knows us (god I hope so)
You really should not be pissed man... apparently you are not happy with me discussing our pathetic life together with my best friend, you will not discuss our pathetic life together with a therapist, nor will you take the time to talk to me about our pathetic life together...so....
You can just go on without dealing with anything but I can't...
I need to talk things out, I need to be heard, I need to get out the crap in my brain before it explodes...
If my rambling here to some cyberstrangers, or to no one at all, gives me a little piece of mind then so be it - trust me it's better I get it out here than all over you...
And you know what... this thing here really isn't about you - it's about me
Now if you have something to contribute there is this letter button thingy that says comments - push it and let me have it or don't push it and let it go....
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
One hundred things about me....
Can I really pull this off??
1. I love my boy more than life itself
2. I generally feel indifferent to the man I'm married to, well, on a good day - sometimes I just want to bash his head in with a weedwacker
3. My parents divorced when I was 6 years old
4. My father had custody of me and my sister growing up
5. I hate feet - think they are gross
6. I had a dog named Ritalin
7. We have a dog now named Barkley
8. I love greek food
9. I used to smoke cigarettes - for about 13 years
10. I am very interested in Buddhism
11. Crickets scare the hell out of me
12. This is the fattest I've ever been in my life
13. The smell of Clinque's "Happy" perfume makes me sick
14. I love my job usually
15. I secretly love Buffy the Vampire Slayer
16. I pretty much lost the year of 1988 due to excessive "partying"
17. I am taking a French course currently
18. One day I will own a Canon Rebel or maybe a Nikon D70
19. I wish I could play the cello
20. I can tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue but have not done this since
the early 90's
21. The elderly intrigue me
22. I do not follow politics
23. I hope to go to India for my 40th or 50th birthday
24. I need glasses
25. Can not live without music
26. Hate lobster and most seafood
27. Doing this makes me think I'm being somewhat narcissistic
28. I watched my mother die
29. I suffer from Vertigo - ya it sucks
30. The best year of my life was 1987
31. I love the work of Edward Gorey and Tim Burton
32. I really did think my wedding was the best evah!
33. I am scared to death of open water
34. I'm really thirsty right now
35. Ahh - I am now drinking a diet coke
36. My baby sister (she's 32) is awesome
37. I really didn't lose my virginity with "T"
38. I'm losing interest in doing this now
39. I feel like I'm doing that Van Halen video - you know the "right now" one..
40. Ugh...nevermind.....I'm done...
1. I love my boy more than life itself
2. I generally feel indifferent to the man I'm married to, well, on a good day - sometimes I just want to bash his head in with a weedwacker
3. My parents divorced when I was 6 years old
4. My father had custody of me and my sister growing up
5. I hate feet - think they are gross
6. I had a dog named Ritalin
7. We have a dog now named Barkley
8. I love greek food
9. I used to smoke cigarettes - for about 13 years
10. I am very interested in Buddhism
11. Crickets scare the hell out of me
12. This is the fattest I've ever been in my life
13. The smell of Clinque's "Happy" perfume makes me sick
14. I love my job usually
15. I secretly love Buffy the Vampire Slayer
16. I pretty much lost the year of 1988 due to excessive "partying"
17. I am taking a French course currently
18. One day I will own a Canon Rebel or maybe a Nikon D70
19. I wish I could play the cello
20. I can tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue but have not done this since
the early 90's
21. The elderly intrigue me
22. I do not follow politics
23. I hope to go to India for my 40th or 50th birthday
24. I need glasses
25. Can not live without music
26. Hate lobster and most seafood
27. Doing this makes me think I'm being somewhat narcissistic
28. I watched my mother die
29. I suffer from Vertigo - ya it sucks
30. The best year of my life was 1987
31. I love the work of Edward Gorey and Tim Burton
32. I really did think my wedding was the best evah!
33. I am scared to death of open water
34. I'm really thirsty right now
35. Ahh - I am now drinking a diet coke
36. My baby sister (she's 32) is awesome
37. I really didn't lose my virginity with "T"
38. I'm losing interest in doing this now
39. I feel like I'm doing that Van Halen video - you know the "right now" one..
40. Ugh...nevermind.....I'm done...
Monday, March 13, 2006
La La La La...
Okay yesterday sucked - ya sucked real hard but today was a new day and with
a new day came a new chance to make it a good one...
God that was really cheesy...
Lets look at the good - things that made me happy today...
(hums that song from the sound of music... rainbows and something about kittens..)
- my boy, actually nothing comes close to the happiness that kid brings me
- having a kick ass good hair day
- finding $15.00 in the washing machine (don't tell the dumbass)
- hearing the birds sing this morning for the first time since this god forsaken winter has been going on
- finally getting that pain in the ass Assessment report done at work today
- having the kitchen sparklin clean
- finding this freakin hilarious blog http://paulstoecklein.blogs.com/
- not stuffin my face with chips tonight
And now I'm going to have the world's longest shower and then hop into bed and start reading a really good book
See it's not all bad.............
a new day came a new chance to make it a good one...
God that was really cheesy...
Lets look at the good - things that made me happy today...
(hums that song from the sound of music... rainbows and something about kittens..)
- my boy, actually nothing comes close to the happiness that kid brings me
- having a kick ass good hair day
- finding $15.00 in the washing machine (don't tell the dumbass)
- hearing the birds sing this morning for the first time since this god forsaken winter has been going on
- finally getting that pain in the ass Assessment report done at work today
- having the kitchen sparklin clean
- finding this freakin hilarious blog http://paulstoecklein.blogs.com/
- not stuffin my face with chips tonight
And now I'm going to have the world's longest shower and then hop into bed and start reading a really good book
See it's not all bad.............
Sunday, March 12, 2006
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well isn't that great.... oh my god i'm sooooooooooooooo upset
God I hate hate hate hate him
I just can't win
FUCK
I'm so screwed
I've been really trying to keep it together - really trying - really trying
but I just can't today, not today, not today
God I hate hate hate hate him
I just can't win
FUCK
I'm so screwed
I've been really trying to keep it together - really trying - really trying
but I just can't today, not today, not today
Sunday, March 05, 2006
She rambles about nothin now
Honestly I really have nothing significant to say - just feel the need to update this blog with something..
Well, I'm watching the oscars right now and haven't seen any of these movies, feeling a bit disappointed with Jon tonight - I really love him and all but, not as great as I thought he'd be...
Was going through the random blogs on here and really.. most are not in english, lots babble on about christian yada yada yada, lots about politics(like I care), and honestly haven't found one tonight that caught my eye enough to actually read through...
Soulmates...soulmates...soulmates... what the hell does that really mean... do you have a soulmate... I have yet to meet mine...discuss
Have my first french test on Wednesday - ha what a joke... what was I thinking when I signed up for French classes - I haven't been in school since 1990 - ahahaha(that's French for ha)
I love the word pedals..say it with me..Pedals, P..ed..als.. isn't that the coolest word - scuba is a good one too..
I think I want to have an affair
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